10 months...

I have indeed almost forgotten about this blog. Like totally...

It has been nearly 10 months I have been working in this new environment. Actually, I like it. No, I love it. Love the new challenge, the new way of looking at things, the exposure, the friends I made, the colleauges... it feels like everyday is a new experience. And yes, I am so NOT bored yet. That is new to me. 10 months and I still feel I don't know anything yet. There is practically NOTHING that I can say I know about this area. That's definitely a challenge in itself.

Confused

If only life is a bed of roses...

Love is supposed to be fulfilling, meaningful, colourful and filled with happiness. But since when it has become a burden? How has it turned out to be so complicated?

Have I indeed made the wrong choice since the beginning? Have I indeed been blinded by love that I know not the reality of life?

Or am I being selfish and unreasonable? Is this merely a matter of money vs love? Or is this a matter of wanting a better life? Then again, is life built on having abundant of material resources or one that is full of love, joy, happiness and laughter? Having said that, is it wrong to pursue both? Is that being greedy?

Perhaps, my life is not meant to be so. There is also no guarantee that by giving up someone, the next one will be better. It all comes down to choices that one makes and living out that decision.

Laziness...

Has anyone of you felt really extremely lazy before? Especially when you do not hold a full time employment? As if everyday just ended like waste?

Well, i seem to be in that situation now. I just can't get myself going with my work in this home environment. Everything is so cosy. Not to mention the tempting bed which is just 2 feet away from me. Aargh...

Going home!! but...

Wow.. this is my last week or should i say my last 3 days in my Uni.. I'm going home this sat!! 2 semesters have ended just like that. It can be rather scary when 1 year passes by so fast, as if just a sec. Not to mention i'm 23 years old now. I really feel old. Somehow i felt that i'm still 21... when i look at myself in the mirror, i can't imagine i've been living on this earth for 23 years already. I still remember when i was just 15 or 16, having fun and studying hard in high school. I guess i'm starting to understand and comprehend why parents exclaimed to one another on how fast their children have grown.

23 years gone... another 20 years will be just as swift, i believe. Hence, life is how one choose to live it. Anyway, i thought i could rest and have fun when i go back home.. Alas!!! My supervisor for my dissertation has asked me to start work on 9 June!!!!! That's just 1 week from now... Such an unexpected sad news... Well, gotta polish up my engine then..

Exams' Over!!!

At last.. at last... It's all over! I'm so relieved. But i can't believe that the days pass by so fast. I thought i just started my exam week.. and today (I mean, yesterday)was my last paper. I hope that will be indeed the last exam i take for the rest of my life. However, i doubt so.

Anyway... i suddenly felt empty.. although its just 7 hours after the final exam. Its like the daily routine of studying and studying and anticipating for the next exam have come to an end. What's next? Rest i suppose, lol. Yeah that will be it. Then comes the next 'headache' - dissertation!!! Arghh.. well at least no more exams. Hehe...