Aloha

I’m in my fifth month of working life. After 4 months, if anyone asked me how’s work, I would just reply fine. In truth, I have no idea what I have been doing over the months. Yes, I worked all day, but that’s it. Any knowledge gained? Definitely, but really little compared to studying. Mostly learnt are people skills. In the beginning I was rather dissatisfied with my current position, grumbling that I am learning too little – not what I have expected at all. My mind till now is just BLANK.

Is this life? Looking at the people around me, this seems to be the case. What is work? A place where one put their heart, soul and mind? A place where one can show off and see how far they can accomplish? Or just to earn a living?

Everyone will have different definition for work. Nonetheless people that I met as well as had conversation with, have similar ‘feelings’ about work. Why is it that so many people are not getting the fulfillment out of work? Why are these people still working and complaining? Some just worked for 30 years and realized they have attained nothing. Don’t they feel something amiss?

I believe deep down they do. Then why no action was taken? Perhaps wanting to settle down? Current job is bringing in high income? Tied up in commitments? Each decision we made have huge consequences that we know no bound.

After I worked and take a closer look at life, I wanted to tell all the children and youths to really treasure their time. There is a time for every moment. If it is to study, then study. Enjoy it. If it is having fun, friendship, puppy love, hurts, cries, betrayals, then, experience it. Because some of the things that you have experienced, you won’t be able to experience it once more.

Nevertheless, I still think if we are willing to take risk and a bagful of courage, we shall find the place that is just right for us.

For me now is the searching time, to know what I want out of life. What I discover is that when one started to work, as you taste a bit of life, one’s future starts to shape. Meaning, you can start seeing what is coming ahead. Such as how much should I save a month? Should I apply a credit card? Which bank? What about insurance? Car? House? Vacation? Parents? Marriage? Or leave the comfort zone and explore elsewhere?

What I’m trying to say is there are so many things that just zoomed into my radar. Things that I did think about last time, but now is the decision making time. Rather different.

I started out work with a spirit of enthusiasm, direction and energy. But a few months down the road, chuckle. Are there any motivation? None.

As I see work as a part of my life now, an integral part, I start to see where I would be in 5 years or 10 years time. Regardless of how high I have climbed the corporate ladder or travel around on business trips, work is still work. Now seems to be the time to see the direction of life. Coz when work is talking about the next 30 years. One should indeed think what is that they want out of life. Then pursue their dreams to live their lives to the fullest.

Anyway, I’ll be leaving to KL tomorrow for my Prize Giving Ceremony in regards to my ACCA. Being placed 2nd out of more than 300 ACCA finalists is indeed an honor. However I just can’t feel that excitement. I actually don’t think I deserve that. I mean yeah I do well in my exams but till that well? I don’t know.

What will this Prize bring me? Opportunities? Am I good enough for such challenges? It’s rather scary to know that you are not that good but others expect you to be on top, excelling. Hmm.. Well, let’s see.